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Did I love his eyes enough?

Unwanted

I certainly have complaints about our mental health system, but today I forgot to notice when one of the psychiatrists I work with said,  "WE WORK WITH THE PEOPLE NO ONE WANTS."  That knocked me over.  I've never put it quite that way before.  It can be difficult to make work an "I want you to thrive" sincerity while navigating through a system that forgets what it is that happens on the front lines. And many on the front lines compromise their own ethics as well.  For those of us in the mental health field,  remember why the people we serve are often unwanted.  For those of you outside of it, know that there's plenty to want.

The Evergreen State College at TEDx -- 2013

I'm thrilled to learn that my Alma Mater, The Evergreen State College, has been featured on TEDx. The seminar has yet to be posted, but the teaser is below.

The Evergreen State College 2013 Tedx Teaser Trailer from Finley Mimbles on Vimeo.

Matt Groening Talks About Evergreen at a Comic Con

Simpsons creator Matt Groening talks about the Alma Mater we share. Warms my heart to hear him speak of the school I love. I earned my Master's degree at the hoity-toity University of Southern California, but it was The Evergreen State College, at which I received my Bachelor's that shaped me the most.

Oh Naked Oly Trees, I Remember These

The Evergreen State College.

 Evergreen campus trees; oh how I miss thee. Alumni 2002. Evergreen, I went off to do great things. Thanks for the boost.

Today I Wanted the Sun - Part II

Progress?

Today I Wanted the Sun

Weird.

A little help

I need a bridge to carry me over, cuz I don't think I translate well.

You were born and therefore you have the privilege of speech. You are undeserving of your voice and I can't stand to listen to your abuse of it. You exist and therefore you cannot cease to speak. I can however, move away from you.

It is the moment when I realize that you are undeserving of your amazing speaking voice. A sound and tone that should only attach itself to good words. Your words are all bad. I feel that I am under something brittle that will crush me.

voice envy

A person's speaking voice draws me in. I'll want to know more if I like your voice. If you're a man I may find you attractive but won't feel safe enough to commit to that unless I learn your name, hear an opinion, hear your laugh and watch your face when you do it. If you're a woman I may want to be like you.

natural shapes bring me things

Shoulder blades gently shaping the fabric of a thin cotton shirt that I assume must feel light and comfortable. I realize that I stare at the backs of women so often. I suppose I am wondering if my back looks similar. A mix of unknowing beauty, simplicity, calm, and an ability to relax. Back envy. A place of freedom that escapes most things. A love a lover's gentle hand to my chest, but sometimes I need a hand to my dragon wings.

Ground Floor

Sometimes I forget how good it feels to sit on the ground.

Forgiveness

Sometimes artificial light during the day is so much more fascinating, so much more enjoyable, so much more important that natural light in the day. Night light is forgiving.

Anchor For You

Ghosts don't cry and they don't grow old..

That Tells Me Something

He couldn't die with the lights on...

Yeah, I Did This Back Then

Deleting everything you've typed cause you saw the other person was typing.

Did You Have One?

Oh, how I miss.

Just Saying

Remember?

go for it

He was in his glory and in his bliss. I thought; "what must that be like?" I decided to go for it. I missed. I figure I might miss again, but through that first experience, I learned that not trying is not an option. That has become a burden and my energy.
~Lady J